Don’t Even Say the Word Cuz Then You Make It a Reality

When a loved one has cancer.

You start thinking about lots of things.

Like why it takes weeks and weeks for procedures – and for medical staff to get back to you with results. And then when they do get back to you the cancer has gotten worse since its first discovery. You think about “beating it” – about how zillions of dollars has been poured into research and still, there is cancer among us. And no real answers about how to beat it. “Every case is different.”

You think about not telling anyone, otherwise you make it a reality. Hell, don’t even say the word out loud because then you give it some sort of power. If you keep it under wraps to some degree, then you almost believe it’ll just disappear like a bad report card.

You think about that feeling that’s constantly emanating from you –  fear. Real fear. You try to push away the gnawing dread in your solar plexus. You try to act happy at others’ parties or get-togethers, yet front-of-mind-awareness of your loved one’s condition has made a pretty sizable presence. Continue reading “You Are Your Own Divine Providence” »